Tuesday 12 january 2010
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Thursday 7 january 2010
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18:45
First of all i would like to say that the Phoenix Project was
beyond awesomness...beyond coolness...beyond anything I've experienced! It was like a dream. i truly felt who I was as a person and really connected with everyone... including SSN. I didn't
realized how much my heart was blocked until masters started tapping me on my heart chakra. The 12 mile walk in Bill Grey Rd was life changing for me. In the beginning, you will have people around
you and supporting you. Later on, you realize that you need to break off that link to be able to grow your soul. You need to focus on yourself. As the journey progressed, many thoughts were running
in my mind. When i started to feel irritated, and thinking, "God, this is taking a long time." I immediately started to think positively and just focus on myself. It was hard considering i started
to think about my life, how much I've been hurting and how much people hurt me. I also realized the barrier I had put up for myself to really 'block" these negative feelings and try to push them
away. I have had so many of these deep emotional blockages that I was scared of confronting them until this training.
I feel I have resisted so much to the higher connection that during NPJD training, I apologized and was forgiven so easily. I never realized how easy it is to just open your heart. Once I got home, first breeze kicked in. I saw my mom, and she seemed upset. She was yelling and was just angry at something... or at me. I just went to her and gave her the biggest hug and she calmed down. But that's just a breeze, the wind started to pick up when I was in front of my center and I knew something was wrong. Sure CNN was an obstacle but it was something else.
My biggest wind...hurricane (let's just say)... is my center's situation. It's not good. I felt my fire getting smaller and smaller. Then i remembered, while I was doing my training that this wind does not have to blow out my light, it can make it bigger. My fellow phoenixi said (after I explained) "sometimes winds take a little flame and blow it into a roaring fire". He inspired me to do more and more. While I was helping another center, I decided I'll enjoy this storm and feel the fire burn more. I love my members, my center, and my wjn! They will always be a part of me and I'm with them. I started to focus more and more on how I can use my energy and I decided to just support members growth and make sure they are alright.
Yesterday, I had my real challenge. I did hong bo with another wjn from a different center and I was scared. I was terrified actually what store owners would say to me when I show them the fliers. I had spoken to my jyjn and he said to just tell the truth. He explained to me to just have confidence because I know the truth already. I still didn't want to do it but I had to! So as I went, I made first stop and I focused on DJ and began hong bo. They accepted. I was surprised they didn't asked about it and about CNN...so i kept going. I finished with no one asking me about it. I was so relieved. Then that night, we had Yeha training and it was wonderful. I was reunited with my fellow Phoenixi (minus one) but we were all there. We planned a beach clean up and we will be doing it on sunday. I'm so excited we're finally taking ACTION!!!
Another breeze came my way today. I had said something unintentional and they just reminded me of how I should watch myself and how I should act. I realized how much I need to change my habit because once i'm comfortable, i become more and more of my old self and I don't like it. I am so grateful of the reminder otherwise i will keep doing it and it will never change and i will never grow.
So to conclude this essay, I would say Good Night and have a wonderful day!!!
CJKU! ALWAYS!!!
I feel I have resisted so much to the higher connection that during NPJD training, I apologized and was forgiven so easily. I never realized how easy it is to just open your heart. Once I got home, first breeze kicked in. I saw my mom, and she seemed upset. She was yelling and was just angry at something... or at me. I just went to her and gave her the biggest hug and she calmed down. But that's just a breeze, the wind started to pick up when I was in front of my center and I knew something was wrong. Sure CNN was an obstacle but it was something else.
My biggest wind...hurricane (let's just say)... is my center's situation. It's not good. I felt my fire getting smaller and smaller. Then i remembered, while I was doing my training that this wind does not have to blow out my light, it can make it bigger. My fellow phoenixi said (after I explained) "sometimes winds take a little flame and blow it into a roaring fire". He inspired me to do more and more. While I was helping another center, I decided I'll enjoy this storm and feel the fire burn more. I love my members, my center, and my wjn! They will always be a part of me and I'm with them. I started to focus more and more on how I can use my energy and I decided to just support members growth and make sure they are alright.
Yesterday, I had my real challenge. I did hong bo with another wjn from a different center and I was scared. I was terrified actually what store owners would say to me when I show them the fliers. I had spoken to my jyjn and he said to just tell the truth. He explained to me to just have confidence because I know the truth already. I still didn't want to do it but I had to! So as I went, I made first stop and I focused on DJ and began hong bo. They accepted. I was surprised they didn't asked about it and about CNN...so i kept going. I finished with no one asking me about it. I was so relieved. Then that night, we had Yeha training and it was wonderful. I was reunited with my fellow Phoenixi (minus one) but we were all there. We planned a beach clean up and we will be doing it on sunday. I'm so excited we're finally taking ACTION!!!
Another breeze came my way today. I had said something unintentional and they just reminded me of how I should watch myself and how I should act. I realized how much I need to change my habit because once i'm comfortable, i become more and more of my old self and I don't like it. I am so grateful of the reminder otherwise i will keep doing it and it will never change and i will never grow.
So to conclude this essay, I would say Good Night and have a wonderful day!!!
CJKU! ALWAYS!!!
Thursday 29 october 2009
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08:31
last night I dreamt of butterflies. It was really pretty. first it was one small white butterfly, then two, then three.... then all of a sudden, I saw so many
butterflies. And in the group of white butterflies, a big bright butterfly was in the middle of it all. It stood out from all of them. it was beautiful.
interpretations of butterfly dreams:
(http://www.dreammoods.com/dreamdictionary/b3.htm)
thank you!!!
interpretations of butterfly dreams:
Butterfly
A dream of a butterfly could be telling you to settle down and not to flit from person to person or it could have to do with social situations.. The bigger and more beautiful the butterfly, the more of an impression you will make on society, or at a special function that you must attend. Use the other symbols in your dream to get you on the right track. (http://www.sleeps.com/dictionary/bbb.html)
Butterfly
To see a butterfly in your dream, denotes your need to settle down. Butterflies signify creativity, romance, joy and spirituality. You may be experiencing a transformation into a new way of thinking. Or you may be undergoing a transitional phase. Alternatively, consider the term "social butterfly" to describe someone who is popular and outgoing. Does this describe you? Perhaps you need to be more outgoing.
To see a beautiful colorful butterfly in your dream, denotes the positive impression you will make at a future social gathering.
To catch or kill a butterfly, suggests that you are being too superficial.
To dream that you are mounting a butterfly on frame, symbolizes sexual oppression.(http://www.dreammoods.com/dreamdictionary/b3.htm)
thank you!!!
Monday 26 october 2009
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14:58
A few days ago I attended a class with M. GM. He was amazing. We did healing with the Power Cards and since that morning I suddenly came with a cold, I focused on my
lungs. But before that, he said "when your power cards felt resistance it means you are blocked," and "when your power cards feels like they are being pulled it, it means your organs need more
energy". Even before we pulled and pushed, i just held my power card in front of my lungs, I really felt my lungs needing energy. It seemed like they were sucking the energy formt he power cards,
especially my right lung. It was cool! So as I focused more and more on my lungs, my head cooled and I started to breathe normally. I felt better. My cold was gone. It was so cool!!!
I had IA training yesterday. Although I was a little bit late, I experienced more on the second half of the training. I had become more focused on DJ and with that it is warm and my head is cooler. I can't think. The experience yesterday was crazy. While we were doing yeoh dahn, I truly felt cjku.I called cjku while I did BWV. I also called cjku while I was doing sleeping tiger...(I wasn't sure if it was 20 or 30 mins)...and it was awesome as well. Once I hit the turning point, I couldn't feel my body, I focused more on DJ and also my hands and feet where cold. I love that feeling when you don't feel pain anymore. My body was really light. When the training grabbed my feet, my mind went straight to my feet and my whole body just suddenly became heavy, and after I dropped my legs on the ground and rested, I felt REALLY light.
Then a master did a demonstration of the Phoenix Dance and it was so cool!!! They introduced the Phoenix Project and I want to do it! I want to do it!!!!! I'm so excited and I can't wait. !!!!!!!!!!! ^_^!!!!!!!
Okay.
Ja ne.
I had IA training yesterday. Although I was a little bit late, I experienced more on the second half of the training. I had become more focused on DJ and with that it is warm and my head is cooler. I can't think. The experience yesterday was crazy. While we were doing yeoh dahn, I truly felt cjku.I called cjku while I did BWV. I also called cjku while I was doing sleeping tiger...(I wasn't sure if it was 20 or 30 mins)...and it was awesome as well. Once I hit the turning point, I couldn't feel my body, I focused more on DJ and also my hands and feet where cold. I love that feeling when you don't feel pain anymore. My body was really light. When the training grabbed my feet, my mind went straight to my feet and my whole body just suddenly became heavy, and after I dropped my legs on the ground and rested, I felt REALLY light.
Then a master did a demonstration of the Phoenix Dance and it was so cool!!! They introduced the Phoenix Project and I want to do it! I want to do it!!!!! I'm so excited and I can't wait. !!!!!!!!!!! ^_^!!!!!!!
Okay.
Ja ne.
Sunday 18 october 2009
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06:19
There are things where you don't ask or feel curious about but just accept and believe. I was driving a few days ago and it was raining. I entered the freeway and a
voice came in my head telling me that i should slow down. Once that happened, I hit the breaks and my car just totally lost control. I hydro-planed. It was heading towards the deep end of the
freeway round-about when I quickly turned the steering wheel the opposite way. When I did that, I felt my hands being removed from the wheel and just the wheel turning itself...my car turned 360
and suddenly stopped facing the cars. While that happened I saw a soft calming fog around me. It was just amazing yet terrifying at the same time. I wanted to go but something held me from going,
then suddenly three cars passed as quickly as they go. I checked and my car started going again. I didn't feel panicky until I started to drive again. I was shaking and just full of nerves until I
started to take some slow breathes. (Yoga does help in calming the mind and body when your in this type of situation. You become more focused.) Then another came in my head that i'm okay and that
they're always there for me. I nearly cried when I composed myself. I told myself that I need to be calm so when I teach I will be okay. Once I got to the center, I got dressed and brushed it
aside, taught, then after it was all over I told my wjn and she told me about her experience too.
Ok...now.
I'M MOVING TO AZ!!!!! How cool is that? I recently got a job in AZ and I will be moving next month. I'm so excited....Wow I can't believe it's getting closer and closer for the big moving day in AZ. I got the job in AZ and I'm so excited about it. I'm a bit nervous about the move and also the job. Last couple of weeks have been so busy, I didn't get to go to an awesome training in NY (but that was my decision..so i'm okay with it). This is going to be a big adventure and it's going to be a hard one. I have solved my car problems... two weeks ago I decided I wanted to buy a new car and i've been looking and looking for a new one and i had made my decision on buying the new Nissan Versa (Sedan). I was set on getting it and when she decided to tell me that I can have her old volvo car. 10 years old but it's still good. It's good because I had been driving it and I'm used to it. Well that settles the car situation, now it's the renting situation with the apartment.
I'm getting really nervous with the whole moving thing but this is it! I'm excited and anxious at the same time. LOL...
Well I should tell my friends now. I've told a few but it's okay.
I love it!...Just life. I'm going to miss everyone but it's okay... they can always visit me. lol...
Ok...now.
I'M MOVING TO AZ!!!!! How cool is that? I recently got a job in AZ and I will be moving next month. I'm so excited....Wow I can't believe it's getting closer and closer for the big moving day in AZ. I got the job in AZ and I'm so excited about it. I'm a bit nervous about the move and also the job. Last couple of weeks have been so busy, I didn't get to go to an awesome training in NY (but that was my decision..so i'm okay with it). This is going to be a big adventure and it's going to be a hard one. I have solved my car problems... two weeks ago I decided I wanted to buy a new car and i've been looking and looking for a new one and i had made my decision on buying the new Nissan Versa (Sedan). I was set on getting it and when she decided to tell me that I can have her old volvo car. 10 years old but it's still good. It's good because I had been driving it and I'm used to it. Well that settles the car situation, now it's the renting situation with the apartment.
I'm getting really nervous with the whole moving thing but this is it! I'm excited and anxious at the same time. LOL...
Well I should tell my friends now. I've told a few but it's okay.
I love it!...Just life. I'm going to miss everyone but it's okay... they can always visit me. lol...
Wednesday 7 october 2009
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20:33
soo an hour has passed and everything was fine. I was so worked up with fear that I let it take over my brain. I was so relieved when i finally faced it and
accomplished. I had fun actually.
that's all. I will write more soon.
just breathe in and breathe out....
Wednesday 7 october 2009
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18:18
This morning, i learned that by focusing more and more on the negative based on your experience, it can hinder your faith and your ability to believe. Due to some
past experience, I had been avoiding a certain part of my life that prevented me from growing mentally and emotionally. I should face my fears right? Although the ability to face your fears can
be a bit nerve wrecking (not sure if that'sthe word i'm looking for) and it can make my mind not focus on what I really am trying to do.
They're very loud and annoying fears...^_^
I was put into a situation where I have to face my fears regardless what I do... and I feel more and more stressed as I thnk about it. my shoulders are more tense than usual and my neck also
than the rest of my body.
But I then start thinking of the positive side of this. That negativity is there regardless what I do. Everyone have felt the same in the past and possibly more in the future. Just one hour of my
time to do it, to feel and although I don't recieve anything back, it's okay.
Telling myself that is "easier said than done" but we all have to face through it. Fear is just an obstacle we all need to face regardless the situation we are in.
My WJN told me: "Don't feed it energy. The more you focus on it, the more it grows. If you just focus more on the positive then it will not be there anymore."
So by focusing on the positive I think you can do anything... i know i can do it.
I'l let you know the results after one hour...
Sunday 4 october 2009
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20:18
Wednesday 16 september 2009
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15:49
"Laughing is one of the best medicine." ever head of that phrase? I had major laugh attacks this past couple days and it was a blast. My friends are one thing
that can make me laugh hystarically. We hung out during last sat and it was the best morning ever. I was constantly laughing which was great. then this sat and sunday i found someone else and I
clicked with her in an instant. I love her dearly and there must have been a reason for me to have found her. I'm so very thankful. As I picked up some trash from my car and threw it out, I felt a
rush of ease. it was great.
For the past few days, i had major car trouble. I had my car suddenly broken into. my window's were smashed and they have stolen my radio. It's such a hassle. I wish this didn't happen to me. I wish It just won't happen at all. to anybody.
So I needed to laugh. I needed the laugh attacks. It makes me stop thinking. A master had major laugh attack a few days ago and it was nice to hear them like that. I love it.
Well thats all.
For the past few days, i had major car trouble. I had my car suddenly broken into. my window's were smashed and they have stolen my radio. It's such a hassle. I wish this didn't happen to me. I wish It just won't happen at all. to anybody.
So I needed to laugh. I needed the laugh attacks. It makes me stop thinking. A master had major laugh attack a few days ago and it was nice to hear them like that. I love it.
Well thats all.
Wednesday 9 september 2009
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17:17
On sat, I found out that my wjn is moving back to sedona and after hearing the news (not from her) i was devastated. I had gotten so close to her for these past few
months and with her leaving it just left me so sad. I finally had a talk with her, and she made me promise to keep going and grow.
then on sunday the so cal yeha had a training with a master from sedona. it was excellent training. we developed plenty of dahn jon power and created harmony within our minds. it's interesting because i felt more connected with my fellow yeha members after the training and felt happier. i felt like a little kid. i love my yeha members. we've gotten closer than before.
also sore the next day.... ouch ouch.
then on sunday the so cal yeha had a training with a master from sedona. it was excellent training. we developed plenty of dahn jon power and created harmony within our minds. it's interesting because i felt more connected with my fellow yeha members after the training and felt happier. i felt like a little kid. i love my yeha members. we've gotten closer than before.
also sore the next day.... ouch ouch.
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